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Blkhrt12

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Hello all, I am new to this forum. I had to register as I have been lost for the past week. Last Friday March 20th, I had to lay my baby girl Buffy to rest. I was with her the whole time, held her close to my body so she knew her mama was there.   Buffy was not yet even 5 years old.  She, as a kitten was sick and nearly died. I adopted her and her two brothers when they were only 3 months old. Buffy developed severe diarrhea, I had her checked at the vets constantly.  We tried dietary changes, biopsy of the intestines, metro, prednisolone, budesonide, tylosin.. You name it we tried it.  I tried slippery elm and other natural remedies. Nothing would ease her pain. Her discomfort was so heartbreaking. She would "scream" in pain and sometimes drop to the ground and her little legs would shake. She started going the bathroom up to 15 times a day. She could not usually make it to her box. She would sit hunched up and even walk hunched up.   I feel so lost, I feel so bad that we could not figure out what was wrong with her or fix her. She was such a good girl she was my baby. A few weeks before I took her in, I noticed she had started sleeping in odd places, in corners and away from all of us. She rarely cleaned herself.  She had no interest in toys anymore, she used to be the first cat to grab a new toy and run, claiming it as hers.  She ate well, but instantly lost all her food to diarrhea. I just had to post, I read a bunch of other posts and I know I am not alone. I got her remains back today as I now have her home in spirit forever free from pain.  I just miss her so much. My heart goes out to all of you on this forum. May your fur-babies cross the rainbow bridge. 

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Lauracoping

I'm so sorry for your loss xxx

I lost my best friend Ruby last week at five years old and my heart broke.

She developed stones that couldn't be removed which caused rapid kidney failure.

I had to help herpass and it torments me.

I miss her somuch it aches. I have her brother here and another cat I took in from the streets but ruby was my tiny girl.

Try to remember that there are so many cats who never get found and never get the love you gave to her.

So many are lonelylooking for a home and a companion and your baby had that

It's not fair that they were taken so young but like people, they are often taken young and there's nothing we can do. I found that very hard to swallow. That I love her so much and that she lovs me so much and we had the momey on loan and the perserverance to save her but still I couldn't.

It helps me somewhat to keep talking to her and keep thinking of the cats who never get the care and love that she had xxx

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Thank you Lauracoping! I'm sorry to hear of the loss of your Ruby. She was so young too. Your right there are so many animals that never receive love, food or proper shelter. I just am having such a hard time with the - well maybe I should have done this or that. even though I was assured by my vet i went above and beyond. I did talk to her last night, I had my two boys (her brothers) sleeping with me and she is now resting on my bureau. In spirit we were and always will be together. I hope you find peace and are able to heal. I'm sure Ruby is happy now, free from her pain as well. Sounds like you too are a good mama. Stacey

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Lauracoping

Thank you Stacey :"(

I am struggling with it too. It all happened so fast with Ruby. One minute I was taking her in for a check up as she had lost weight the nxt minute I was being told I had to let her go.

I looked after her so well, took her to the vet for any little thing bought her everything she needed and still the vets missed this problem she had.

Within 9 days she was gone.

I took her to the highest consultants in Ireland and they couldn't save her, the advised pts very quickly which was the same advice her vets had given but it was three days later when she hadnt eaten in two days and was hiding fromme and was so weak that I took her in and helped her pass.

I keep going to a dark place in my mind thinking did I let go too soon ?

But all the professional s say I didn't and even me myself, I was sure she was dying in my arms so I made the appointment. I didn't want her to die in terrible pain which is what was happening. Her own body was poisoning itself as her kidneys couldn't remove toxins.

But still I wonder did I do it too soon, did she have another month another week or even another day, she just loved life and loved me and I am devastated that it's over for her. So i understand what you're going through.

I hope there is an afterlife, I really do.

Thank you so much for your words. In time we can fall in love all over again but we'll never replace them xx

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Oh wow Lauracoping! That's awful. To have missed that. Totally devastating. I totally understand Buffy had started sleeping in odd places, behind the couch, in front of the couch. She stopped going upstairs. She got aggressive She used to sleep with me all the time, lately it was maybe once every 3 weeks n she would not stay long. She would cramp up n leave. I too brought her in all the time, she went to the emergency clinic twice at 1100.00 each time. I didn't care. She also spent 3 weeks at my vet because of testing positive for tritrichomas. Even after the treatment no positive results. I had such high hopes after that. To bring her home and have the same issues was beyond devastating. I believe my Buffy died in my arms. Once my vet gave her the sedative before her injection her tiny body twitched, then got very heavy. She lifted her head once, I kissed her n told her it was ok then she put her head down and took only two more breaths. We have to believe we both did all we could. I'm leaving next Friday for Las Vegas and I'm not even happy :( I feel certain you did the right thing, you would not have wanted your baby to suffer worse yet die a painful death perhaps even alone. I thank God for this forum as my husband is starting to get angry with me because I keep saying "what if".... We have to always trust our hearts when it comes to our pets. Talk soon. Thank you for your posts... Stacey

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