Wife of 13 years passed away from AML in May

[rick1310]

On May 1,2014 I lost my wife of 13 years. She was diagnosed with AML in Nov 2013 and we thought she was getting better. It has been a really difficult time and I was hoping there may be someone in a similar situation I may be able to talk to. I have friends and family of course but unless you have experienced it, it is difficult to relate to. 

[Shattered14]

Rick1310 - I am so very sorry for your loss.  I lost my husband on 2/25/14 from a hemorrhage caused by undiagnosed leukemia.  We didn't know he was sick at all.  I call him my husband because we were already married in our hearts.  He actually died 4 months before our wedding day.  We never saw it coming.  He was ok and then in an instant everything happened.  He went into a coma and died in less than 24 hours.    The doctors told me that he may have only had it a very short time.  He must have because he had bloodwork done for his commercial drivers license, and he was told that everything was fine.  That was in November 2013.   4 months later he was dead.  The doctor said it was an acute form of leukemia that was very aggressive and turned blastic.  It could have been only a matter of weeks in his body.  How can that possibly be?  I don't understand.  To say that I am devastated doesn't even come close to truly explaining the pain I feel.  I am. lost and overwhelmed.  Life has lost all meaning.  So, you see, I truly understand how you feel.  I wish I had something that I could say that would make it better for you but I don't.  All I can say is that I'm so sorry for your loss.... I truly understand the depth of the pain...and I am here to listen as I completely agree that only someone who has experienced such a loss can really relate.

[Lostnalone]

Rick1310

I feel the pain of your loss.

This is my first post. I have been coming here for a few months, reading, seeking some type of comfort, but never able to reply. I just don't know what to say. I am in such a state, that when my friends offer me help or ask me what they can do to help me, I don't even know myself. I don't think that there is anything that can be said to help alleviate the pain, the emptiness, the loneliness. And so, I tell you that I don't know what to say to you.

All I can say, is that I feel your same pain. My husband also passed away on May 1st 2014. We were very happily married for 22 years and were each other's Center of the universe. My husband had a medical condition but he was living a "normal" life since 1997. He became acutely ill in November 2013 and it went downhill from there. I was always hopeful he would pull through and actually never though he would go...

I feel so alone since he's been gone. Now the horrible November is soon coming.

I also feel the need to talk, so I'm here

Shattered14: I feel so sad for your loss of your husband.

[Robai]

Reading what you have shared has brought a flood of tears.l lost my husband of 26 years to a very aggressive cancer on 24/12/2012.It's been almost two years but my heart pains as if it just happened.He was diagnosed with cancer in September and by December he was gone.They say the pain gets better with time,but l think we just tolerate it better with time.l feel like lam forever in a daze and some days l just break down.This particular week has been very difficult.l understand what you are going through and l know life is never going to be the same for us.let's pray for each other all the time.

[dbang]

So sorry for your loss.  My boyfriend (over a decade), who passed 2 weeks ago, was diagnosed with AML a little over 2 years ago.  He went through BMT and was in full remission for nearly a year...we let ourselves believe we'd beaten it.  But last spring it was back.  We still had hope but he kept getting worse instead of better.  I feel like I've been wrung out and run over.   Cancer sucks.  Sorry we are here...