Life goes on - and it sucks

[Pinkbaggirl]

I was just at the birthday party of one of my dad's oldest and best friends. I went with my mom because she was invited but didn't want to go alone.

I realise life goes on for other people but it sucks, for me, to see other people happy and enjoying a party when my dad is no longer alive.

One of my best friend's dad turned 70 today. I felt jealous and sad cause my dad was 69 when he died last month. My dad will never celebrate a 70th birthday.

I feel angry and blah. It was hard to be at that party today.

[cindyjane]

I am so sorry for your loss.  Over the years I've lost relatives, co-workers and friends but there was nothing like losing a parent.  I lost my mom last October and my dad last week.  Both parents in less that a year.  I have to say that I personally will never get over it, but I will get on with it ... because I know that is what both of my parents would want.  They would want me to carry on and live my life and enjoy it.  I found myself on a few occasions feeling resentful to others who have their parents and then I came to realize that when I was in elementary school there were a few kids (grade 3, 4 and 5) who lost a parent.  I've had mine all of this time so I can't help but to feel grateful for that.  I often say ... all you have to do is look to the left, then look to the right and you'll always find someone out there dealing with much worse.  This all being said, I am sure having my moments and probably always will but I'll just try to be the best person I can be as they would want.  Take care

 

Cindy Jane

[Pinkbaggirl]

Thanks Cindy Jane.

Liv