I lost my mum and my sister this year

[ifihaveto]

Hi everyone

I hope this is the right place to post this - I just joined the site.

I dont really know where to begin - and I don't know what to do.

I lost my mum January 20th  to cancer I cant begin to tell you how how much I miss her especially today.

And I lost my sister 9th of April to cancer we only found a week after my mums funeral and it all happened so fast!

I have felt quite numb and have been dealing with it all quite well up until today - for some reason it has all just hit me!

It's my sisters funeral on Wednesday and I just hope I can hold it together for her children and for the rest of my family I feel like Im going to burst if I dont share how sad I am with someone!

I cant even breathe!

I feel like its too much sadness for one person to take!

I dont have a family of my own and I have just spent the easter weekend alone with no one to share anything with 

I hope this site can help me deal with some of the feelings im having because I feel like I cant function!

Thankyou x

[MissuDad]

Hi ifihaveto,

 

I´m really sorry for your losses, can´t even imagine how hard it must be for you You barely had time to start dealing with one loss and another one happens

 

If it´s "hitting" you now it´s totally normal, right after your mom dies you get that awful news about your sister, you probably got your grief on hold, so you could be there for your sister....

 

Don´t feel you have to hold it together, you´re in pain and should not have to force anything on you, if you feel to lose control, lose it, it´s all part of it. If you can´t do it publicly do it on your privacy or where you feel more comfortable doing it.

 

This forum his an amazing place, people here understand and try to help each other on anyway they can, as least we don´t feel so alone in the world and we realised that there are people out there feeling as we do.

 

A big, big hug.