[RememberingRachael]

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After my wife passed, I moved to my brother's place in Phoenix. I am still there but not long after moving in with him I started to have some interesting dreams about my wife. I had 3 very realistic dreams where I had conversations with my wife about what happen and where she is now. They seemed like a message to help me out and thats how I'm taking them right now. Personally, I think they were real and here they are....

Dream One: I was suddenly standing on a grassy hill with a few trees around. I remember feeling the wind blowing and seeing the clear sky above. To my left and down the hill stood several people. I couldn't make them out from a distance but I know they were people. I turned back and looked forward and saw my wife standing before me. She was wearing a long blue robe and had a smile on her face. I asked her if all this was real and she said "oh yes, it's real". I forget some of the conversation but she was wearing glasses like she did alive. I asked "why are you wearing glasses here?" and her response was "Because this is how you remember me". I woke up soon after not knowing where I was. It was so real and unlike any dream I've had before.

Dream Two: I fell asleep at my brother's place and started to dream again. In the dream, I was sitting on my brother's couch WITH my wife. We were talking and I asked her what had happen that morning when she passed. She placed her left hand on my knee and smiled. She told me her death was an accident but she is okay now. Her touch felt so real. It was like she was sitting right there with me. It was so real!

Dream Three: My last dream had Tracy (my wife) visiting me once again. We talked more about what happen and she once again informed me that all is well with her. This time she told me that she would not be able to visit me anymore. She said she would see me again someday but could not come back to me now. I remember being upset when hearing that but it was okay. Since that dream I have not had any others even close to being similar. I have had nightmares but no dreams that were as real as the three I mentioned.

So, I told this to my family who are Christians but they said to be careful. Said those dreams could be sent from Satan trying to trick me. Now, I can see him sending me the nightmares but why send dreams of Tracy in a place that can only be described as a place of peace and love? Why would she encourage me and assure me she is okay if those were sent by the devil? I like to think God sends people messages through dreams to help heal the hearts, mind, and souls of those of us who are still here suffering that great loss.

I am so very sorry for your loss of your wife. I enjoyed reading about your dreams. I enjoyed them because I believe they were real also. I am a Christian also and at one time may have felt and believed the same way as your family. However, after my daughter died she came to both me, and my husband in a dream. I had much guilt over her death and blamed myself. When she appeared in the dream, I cried out and asked her for forgiveness. Also, the way the bible says in the end all the truth will come out? I confessed my failure to her and said things I did not realize and could not have conjured up. It was cleansing and spiritual. I was emotional and crying. Then she was gone and I woke up. I had sensed her presence. My husband also had a dream about her in the same time frame. And then no more. In the bible Jesus appeared to his disciples onEarth before ascending to the Father. I believe my daughter came to me because she knew me, knew I would blame myself, and the confession was for me and my sake. I know these dreams were real. I think she had just not ascended to the Father yet and was telling us a final goodbye. I don't know if this helps. But you know what it was. It was peaceful and like you said, why would Satan want to promote that?

[Forsaken1]

After my wife passed, I moved to my brother's place in Phoenix. I am still there but not long after moving in with him I started to have some interesting dreams about my wife. I had 3 very realistic dreams where I had conversations with my wife about what happen and where she is now. They seemed like a message to help me out and thats how I'm taking them right now. Personally, I think they were real and here they are....

Dream One: I was suddenly standing on a grassy hill with a few trees around. I remember feeling the wind blowing and seeing the clear sky above. To my left and down the hill stood several people. I couldn't make them out from a distance but I know they were people. I turned back and looked forward and saw my wife standing before me. She was wearing a long blue robe and had a smile on her face. I asked her if all this was real and she said "oh yes, it's real". I forget some of the conversation but she was wearing glasses like she did alive. I asked "why are you wearing glasses here?" and her response was "Because this is how you remember me". I woke up soon after not knowing where I was. It was so real and unlike any dream I've had before.

Dream Two: I fell asleep at my brother's place and started to dream again. In the dream, I was sitting on my brother's couch WITH my wife. We were talking and I asked her what had happen that morning when she passed. She placed her left hand on my knee and smiled. She told me her death was an accident but she is okay now. Her touch felt so real. It was like she was sitting right there with me. It was so real!

Dream Three: My last dream had Tracy (my wife) visiting me once again. We talked more about what happen and she once again informed me that all is well with her. This time she told me that she would not be able to visit me anymore. She said she would see me again someday but could not come back to me now. I remember being upset when hearing that but it was okay. Since that dream I have not had any others even close to being similar. I have had nightmares but no dreams that were as real as the three I mentioned.

So, I told this to my family who are Christians but they said to be careful. Said those dreams could be sent from Satan trying to trick me. Now, I can see him sending me the nightmares but why send dreams of Tracy in a place that can only be described as a place of peace and love? Why would she encourage me and assure me she is okay if those were sent by the devil? I like to think God sends people messages through dreams to help heal the hearts, mind, and souls of those of us who are still here suffering that great loss.

[ModKonnie]

susan551, on 08 March 2011 - 06:59 AM, said:

I have a question that I am not quite sure how to ask.
Is it wrong to look for signs, visions etc? I feel like I spend so much time looking for my mom all day and feeling empty when I don't "find" or "feel" her anywhere. It is exhausting. Part of me says you can't force a presence or a sign so stop...another part of me says be alert because you don't want to miss anything. I am so hungry for an affirmation from her. I read about the things that people have happen like visions and dreams and I ache for it.
Thanks

Hi Susan,
Are you asking is it wrong from a religious perspective? I would assume that the answer would be "yes" in some cases, "no" in others depending on your personal belief system.
I can understand how you want affirmation; hopefully in time you will receive your answer. But, if you and your mother are Christian, then you know that your mother is safe in Heaven with God, because that is the reassurance/affirmation the Christian faith offers for believers. Sometimes, we just have to take things by "faith," which is difficult to do for most of us in this day and age.
ModKonnie

[susan551]

I have a question that I am not quite sure how to ask.
Is it wrong to look for signs, visions etc? I feel like I spend so much time looking for my mom all day and feeling empty when I don't "find" or "feel" her anywhere. It is exhausting. Part of me says you can't force a presence or a sign so stop...another part of me says be alert because you don't want to miss anything. I am so hungry for an affirmation from her. I read about the things that people have happen like visions and dreams and I ache for it.
Thanks

[ModKonnie]

susan551, on 07 March 2011 - 06:01 AM, said:

Thank you so much Konnie. I feel like I did the right thing but the grief feels like a heaviness that I can't get away from. It was so sudden with no warning. She went from going out to eat with her friends and working a part time job to being critically ill in the matter of a day. I don't know how to understand it. I just know I miss her so much. I want to call her and ask her how to get through this. I know she lost her parents but I don't remember her talking about how she coped.
Last night I went to the gym and tired myself out. Still looking for signs of her. Wanting more than anything to know she is ok.

Susan

I certainly understand wanting to know if she is okay. I want to ask my father the same thing. I know how it feels to desperately want to talk to someone and you can't because of that great divide. I trust that we will all be able to laugh and talk and joyfully reunite one of these days. Until then, we move forward inch by inch until we can smile and remember the good times.
My father suffered for months, years really, before he passed. We knew it was coming, but still it was so hard and shocking when it actually happened. Nothing prepares you, nothing at all for that moment. The suddenness of your mom's illness may have been a way to ease her suffering, or maybe it was for a different purpose. Regardless of why it happened, it did, and you are left in anguish. You will find your way again, it is just going to take time. We will be here for you, really.
ModKonnie

[susan551]

Thank you so much Konnie. I feel like I did the right thing but the grief feels like a heaviness that I can't get away from. It was so sudden with no warning. She went from going out to eat with her friends and working a part time job to being critically ill in the matter of a day. I don't know how to understand it. I just know I miss her so much. I want to call her and ask her how to get through this. I know she lost her parents but I don't remember her talking about how she coped.
Last night I went to the gym and tired myself out. Still looking for signs of her. Wanting more than anything to know she is ok.

Susan

[ModKonnie]

susan551, on 06 March 2011 - 07:49 AM, said:

I just wanted to add my experience here, not sure if it is the right place?

My mom died last week suddenly. I am an only child and she is the only family I had left besides my children. I flew from Ohio to Las Vegas the same day I found out she was ill in the hospital. By the time I got there my previously very vibrant active mom was in ICU on a respirator. The dr said she came in with stomach pains and they found a huge grapefruit sized mass on the CT scan in her abdomen. He told me it was almost definitely cancer and she had had it for a long time. When I got to her, her skin was cold, her stomach was swollen like she was 9 months pregnant and she was only being kept alive by the respirator. She appeared to see me at one point (she was very drugged on morphine). I told her I would do everything in my power to make sure she was comfortable. She nodded at me and then fell back asleep. She appeared to be in pain still and I asked for more morphine. The nurse said they could not give her more unless I was ok with removing life support and allowing her to pass whenever she stopped breathing. I signed for them to take the ventilator off and two drs signed also. I knew my mom had a living will and did not want heroic measures/life support machines. Within about 3 minutes, my mom took her last breath and I saw the light leave her eyes.
My son had driven out to Vegas and he drove me back home over a few days. I spent three days looking at incredible scenery going by, crying and doubting myself. I became desperately afraid that I had done the wrong thing and that maybe if I had insisted the dr would have operated we could have taken out the mass and saved her. I cried and cried thinking I had not done enough for my mom.
My son had been playing the radio the whole time....mostly contemporary music that I didn't even know. All of the sudden I heard a voice on the radio say,
"By the way, we are all very proud of you, you made the right choice".
Then it went back to music. I felt like it was my mom, and my grandma and grandpa and aunts all together again telling me I did the right thing and trying to ease my self torture.
Now I find myself hungry for more affirmation. I want to know she is ok, happy. I want to know I will see her again.
Thank you all for reading this. God bless you all.

Susan

Susan,
I am very sorry about the passing of your mother. You did do the right thing. Had the doctors been able to operate, I'm sure they would have immediately. You had a tough decision to make, and you did what your mother wanted you to do. I'm sure she is proud of you.
We will be here to support you,
ModKonnie

[susan551]

I just wanted to add my experience here, not sure if it is the right place?

My mom died last week suddenly. I am an only child and she is the only family I had left besides my children. I flew from Ohio to Las Vegas the same day I found out she was ill in the hospital. By the time I got there my previously very vibrant active mom was in ICU on a respirator. The dr said she came in with stomach pains and they found a huge grapefruit sized mass on the CT scan in her abdomen. He told me it was almost definitely cancer and she had had it for a long time. When I got to her, her skin was cold, her stomach was swollen like she was 9 months pregnant and she was only being kept alive by the respirator. She appeared to see me at one point (she was very drugged on morphine). I told her I would do everything in my power to make sure she was comfortable. She nodded at me and then fell back asleep. She appeared to be in pain still and I asked for more morphine. The nurse said they could not give her more unless I was ok with removing life support and allowing her to pass whenever she stopped breathing. I signed for them to take the ventilator off and two drs signed also. I knew my mom had a living will and did not want heroic measures/life support machines. Within about 3 minutes, my mom took her last breath and I saw the light leave her eyes.
My son had driven out to Vegas and he drove me back home over a few days. I spent three days looking at incredible scenery going by, crying and doubting myself. I became desperately afraid that I had done the wrong thing and that maybe if I had insisted the dr would have operated we could have taken out the mass and saved her. I cried and cried thinking I had not done enough for my mom.
My son had been playing the radio the whole time....mostly contemporary music that I didn't even know. All of the sudden I heard a voice on the radio say,
"By the way, we are all very proud of you, you made the right choice".
Then it went back to music. I felt like it was my mom, and my grandma and grandpa and aunts all together again telling me I did the right thing and trying to ease my self torture.
Now I find myself hungry for more affirmation. I want to know she is ok, happy. I want to know I will see her again.
Thank you all for reading this. God bless you all.

Susan

[w810angel]

Hello thanks for your response !!

Actually I only remembered while I was quite young, as is common with carry over memories and children...they fade. and I was 7 or 8 years old when I stopped remembering anything or at least I stopped mentioning it around that age my mother said.

When we moved to Virginia Beach to be close to the A.R.E we met the most AWESOME people !! I was exposed to psychics, energy workers, alchemists... you name it and someone was available to take you as far as you wanted to go with your studies. There were meditations and activities for children , picnics with activities that strengthen and defined our own unique gifts and interests.

When I saw my brother, after he had passed... I think they may have wondered if I was alright ... I had a hard time getting used to him not being available to chat with and learn from. The saddness returned after a couple of weeks unfortunately : )

[ModKonnie]

Hi,
How interesting. So do you recall an entire history,like years and years of experiences? Do you remember events, times, places, etc.? Do you remember another name?
I am fascinated. I don't really know anything about all of this, but I find it somewhat fascinating yet a little frightening, somehow.
What did your parents find out, and did your experience with your brother somehow offer them any comfort or solace in their grief?
Thanks for posting, and welcome.
Konnie

[w810angel]

My parents were puzzled when I would continually insist that my mother take me to see my "other mother" and my sister Darlene. I apparently began speaking earlier than my siblings and almost immediately began expressing my impatience and determination to see them and when that would be !! Becomming increasingly agitated and frustrated with their lack of understanding and cooperation; "Not you !!! My OTHER Mother !!" When she had confirmed that my father was not living a double life with two families .. . they began a quest to explain what they experienced and witnessed raising me. My parents began actively researching the topic of reincarnation, and found case histories involving children that have carried over memories and characteristics that do not come from any currant life experiences. Vivid memories and emotions from a life time before being born into the present family (life). Eventually, my parents packed up the family and moved to Virginia Beach, Virginia to allow them the oppertunity to interact and study amongst the many Associates of the Edgar Caycee Foundation.
I also saw my brother hours after he passed from complications of Diabetes. Suddenly and Abruptly the windchimes he gave me for my birthday forcefully shook abck and forth several times, with intent. Immediately I was conscience of the lack of any breeze ... the first thing that occurred to me was that someone had startled me deliberately judging the way the branch was snatched back and forth several times clattering the chimes together surprisingly loud. When I snatched my attention toward the sound, I saw my brother smiling and bending his leg twice. He called out with a beeming smile " Look Lin, I got my leg back !! I know I had not imagined seeing him because just as quickly as I had seen him he was gone , taking with him all traces of the saddness that had gripped my heart . I felt the joy and the elation that I saw present on his face and I did not feel sorrow only love - Linda


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I have a question to anyone that has small children....How old are they when and if they start having an imaginary friend? My 15 month old daughter did something the other day that has me wondering about this. She was on one of her riding toys and went down the hallway, got off and walked to the front of it (the truck) and was acting like she was petting and loving on someone. She was jabbering away and kissed it, padded it some more, hugged it and said bye bye and got back on her little truck and rode back down the hall. This kind of freaked me out because she is so little. My first thought was, could she be seeing my mom and dad who passed away before she was born? Then yesterday morning I saw on the Montel show that their is a growing number of children physic's these days and described things simular to this. I don't think my child is physic or anything, it just got me wondering about it all I guess. I hear all sort of stories about this kind of stuff and I am just courious. I am interested in hearing everyone's thoughts on this. Thoughts, own experiences, etc... I'd appreciate any feedback on this. Has this happend to anyone else? Should I be concerned? Could she have seen my parent's. Questions, questions, questions...lol.
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[momforever4]

I lost my son Jeremy, 30, to accident 1 year,2 months, 2 weeks, 5 days.  About 2 weeks after accident, he left voice mail on my home phone.  The phone was beside me, did not ring, but was blinking voicemail.  It was about 11:00 in evening.  I dialed my voicemail number, listened to the voicemail, it scared me to death!!  It was Jeremy leaving me a message, "I LOVE YOU MOM!"  There is do doubt that it was his voice.  Many things have happened to us, alot are electrical things, phones and my husbands truck radio.  I could fill this screen up.  These things he does are beautiful, I feel it is all his ways of telling us he is still here loving us, checking in on us.  We have orbs in pictures, objects being moved in my husbands garage, little signs which we know comes from our son, comforts to us.  My second dream, I finally saw his face, was after a year since I lost him.  It was more than a dream, we were together.  We were in his truck, he was driving, I was sitting close to him as his wife would.  I had my head on his shoulder, our arms were locked at elbow.  He had his black hat on backwards, a rub of snuff in his lip!  We talked, I asked him if he talked to daddy like this, and he replied that he was with daddy earlier that day.  He lets daddy know he is around by suddenly turning on his truck radio on, with flashing words, 0000000000 (his nickname is zero)  To get to my point, I could feel warmth where I had my head on his shoulder, not a dream, I felt the warmth even when I woke up. If you use a digital recorder, letting it just record, you will be suprised at what it picks up!  Not wishful thinking, it is knowing that his presence is still here at times.

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[need2talk]

Hi everyone, just been reading through some of your experiences and it has prompted me to share some of mine.
To be honest, had this not happened to me i would have remained the sceptic i've always been. I always felt that grieve and loss and all the shock and awful pain that comes with it can leave us in a vunerable place. By that I mean, 'wishful thinking', we all want and need a sign to reassure us. It hurts not to know.
Thats not to say that that i haven't felt that there is some kind of 'life after death', but just didn't have a strong enough faith i think.?
I lost my lovely mum suddenly and unexpectedly 20 months ago. My sisters and i found her at home, she was 62. It was in very traumatic circumstances and i cannot, even now, put it into words.
The weeks between her death and the funeral and several weeks after that we experienced some incidents that we have no explanation for.
The phone line continually crackled and buzzed when any of my three sisters were on the line, speaking to anyone else it was fine. The computer 'ate' words that we typed to read at mum's funeral, (this happened 3 times, once when two of us were there it just shut down). This had never happened before or since. Then two weeks after her funeral was Christmas week. We decided to put a tree up because my young daughter needed it really. After vaccuming the needles up, i was just putting things away when a very loud 'electrical' sounding 'pop' went over my head. My sister and i both ducked thinking a bulb had gone. Nothing. We checked fairy lights, all the bulbs in the house and electrical sockets and everything was fine. i know she was there.
Since then i do feel mum with us in much more sutble ways, usually some of her favourite music comes on. Just wanted to share. ((hugs)) 

[missingkevin]

Wow, I didn't know this forum was even here!  I know it's natural to dream about departed loved ones but I've had some odd occurences also!  One time during a storm after my son passed, the power went off but the clock radio in his room started BLARING!  It was so bizarre!  No, there were no batteries in the radio and he'd been gone for several months and this had never happened before.  It went off as quickly as it came on and I really felt like he was there.  I'm sure someone could dismiss this as an electrical current or something but after the power went out, to pass the time I was playing Tetris on a handheld device.  My son had disabled the sound for me long before he passed but suddenly the game started beeping and chiming while I played.  Yeah, I knew then that he was there and I just smiled through my tears.    :)

[aurora]

I had a very healing dream about my husband who passed in March 2006. We were holding each other crying telling each other all the things we had learned about death and dying since he died. It was very real.

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[pcb1902]

Thank you for your reply, and sorry to hear of both your losses.

I do get signs from dad, my mum gets a lot more... but then however much I need something from dad I know mum needs it more so I'm happy with that, plus I get to hear her talk about it and it makes me feel good.  I have heard that if someone was ill for a long time then they go through a stage of healing once the pass over which may be one reason why he doesn't come to me in a dream, but I also know that in order to accept a communication from a loved one you first have to accept where that communication is coming from, and even though my head seems to have accepted his passing I don't think my heart has yet caught up, I still seem to be numb from any feeling, I haven't really grieved for him and the oddest of all is that I don't miss him ... and I desperately want to miss him and feel that loss, otherwise I think I'm going crazy (we were very close).

I truly hope that you can find some comfort dealing with your loss, I wish I had words of advice I could give to you but sadly I can only say how I deal with losing dad when I'm feeling sad about him, for me I just have to think of the funny things he said, we like to share these memories in our family and it helps us greatly to laugh at our fondness of them, and when I'm doing DIY I just imagine him standing there telling me how to do it "properly"... in fact he probably is standing there doing just that knowing him.

I hope one day that I will be lucky enough to have some real communication with him, one on one, I have tried the talking out loud a little but I think I'm going to try a little harder and try not to feel silly doing it.

Good luck to you and once again thank you for your reply

[butterfly13]

It sounds to me that your dream WAS a message from your dad telling you that soon your cat would be joining him.My dad died 7yrs. ago and for the longest time I would dream of him every night.I lost my mom 9mths.ago and now the same thing is happening,I dream of her all the time.This should make me happy,but when I wake up it just makes me so sad because I want to pick up the phone and talk to her.After she died weird things would happen at the oddest times,and I felt her around me,I don't feel that anymore,and I don't get anymore "signs"from her.I have read alot of books lately and they all say that we need to talk to our loved ones out loud.Maybe you need to do that with your dad?If you don't feel him around you,or if you haven't gotten any signs from him,maybe it means that he has crossed over to a better place and he isn't able to be with you right now,that's what I like to think with my parents.